I’m not a big 5k warrior, but I am a huge 5k worrier. I’ve done a few races over the past several years, and it seems the more I train, the more nervous I am the night before the race. So here I am, worrying about how chilly it’s going to be in the morning (I pulled my hamstring on a chilly morning), how many people in my age category will sign up (It’s not chip timed, so my starting position will matter), how long the port-a-potty lines will be (Do I really have to explain this one?), how I will
look run in my new compression socks (I love that they are gaudy), but mostly, was all the training worth it?
That’s the big one. I’m running 3 to 4 days a week and strength training 3 times a week as well. I’m eating well and pushing myself as far as my body will go. I’ve been coming back from the hamstring pull since spring, and foam rolling, stretching and keeping an eye on the quad that I injured last year. But will it be good enough?
Do all runners get nervous about this stuff? I’m clearly not an elite athlete, so in moments of lucidity, I know it doesn’t matter in the big scheme of things. I have been trying over the last year to win my age group and improve my time, while still enjoying the process. And yet, here I am the night before the race, fretting about everything under the sun.
I hate to disappoint anyone by giving a poor performance, and that fear, as much as my own competitive nature drives me. Everyone around me is incredibly supportive so this is a mental issue entirely of my own making. One day, I’ll start truly believing that doing my best is all I need to do, and quit being a worrier. But until then, even while I worry, I’ll run, train, and hopefully one day I’ll become a warrior.